last words

•January 29, 2010 • 1 Comment

yesterday szu asked me what were some of my favourite books, and it got me thinking about how i used to choose books at the bookstore based on the last paragraph or last few sentences of the book. i recommended to szu “on chesil beach” by ian mcewan. i wouldn’t necessarily say it’s my ultimate favourite of all (though it is one of), but it certainly has the best last paragraph i’ve ever read.

This is how the entire course of a life can be changed – by doing nothing. On Chesil Beach he could have called out to Florence, he could have gone after her. He did not know, or would not have cared to know, that as she ran away from him, certain in her distress that she was about to lose him, she had never loved him more, or more hopelessly, and that the sound of his voice would have been a deliverance, and she would have turned back. Instead, he stood in cold and righteous silence in the summer’s dusk, watching her hurry along the shore, the sound of her difficult progress lost to the breaking of small waves, until she was a blurred, receding point against the immense straight road of a shingle gleaming in the pallid light.

it still gives me the chills reading it now.


never too far away

•January 6, 2010 • Leave a Comment

it’s been a long time coming, and i’m reaching out to You again

thank you for meeting me more than halfway

God on a dirt road walking toward me

•October 22, 2009 • 1 Comment

I once listened to an Indian on television say that God was in the wind and the water, and I wondered at how beautiful that was because it meant you could swim in Him or have Him brush your face in a breeze. I am early in my story, but I believe I will stretch out into eternity, and in heaven I will reflect upon these early days, these days when it seemed God was down a dirt road, walking toward me. Years ago He was a swinging speck in the distance; now He is close enough I can hear His singing. Soon I will see the lines on His face.

– excerpt from Blue Like Jazz, Donald Miller


•September 22, 2009 • Leave a Comment

When I was a girl, my life was music that was always getting louder. Everything moved me. A dog following a stranger. That made me feel so much. A calendar that showed the wrong month. I could have cried over it. I did. Where the smoke from a chimney ended. How an overturned bottle rested on the edge of a table.

I spent my life learning to feel less.

Everyday I feel less.

Is that growing old? Or is it something worse?

You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness.

– excerpt from Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer

who may ascend the hill of the Lord?

•June 7, 2009 • Leave a Comment

we bow our hearts
we bend our knees
o Spirit come, make us humble
we turn our eyes
from evil things
o Lord we cast down our idols

so give us clean hands
give us pure hearts
let us not lift our souls to another

o God let us be a generation that seeks
who seeks your face, O God of Jacob

who may ascend the hill of the Lord?
who may stand in His holy place?
he who has clean hands and a pure heart
who does not lift up his soul to an idol
or swear by what is false
he will receive blessing from the Lord
and vindication from God his Saviour

– psalm 24:3-5


•March 21, 2009 • Leave a Comment

“And what if you hadn’t met me?” he would ask her. “I don’t know, but you’re here, you see . . .” For some reason the answer made the question worthless, it showed the logical basis of ordinary common sense. After that Oliveira would feel better able to resist his bookish prejudices, and paradoxically La Maga would fight off her disdain for scholarly knowledge. Thus they went along, Punch and Judy, attracting each other and repelling, as love must do if it is not to end up as calendar art or a pop tune. But love, that word . . .

Hopscotch, Julio Cortazar

maybe for the last time..

•March 2, 2009 • Comments Off on maybe for the last time..

i will stop wondering what would have happened if i got there earlier.