relativity
being here at times it feels suffocating.
in london i could go outside. i would be alone, and i would feel a sense of emancipation. the largeness of nature, of the outside would swallow up everything else. there would be perspective to be gained, and escape.
it could be a vastness of green grass lined sparsely with trees. a solitary bus ride where the destination didn’t matter- only the journey did. it could be standing on a bridge over the thames. learning lessons from a plastic bottle being tossed about and displaced by the current, only to find that, really, nothing of significance has changed in the larger scheme of things.
but here one feels almost trapped. there is no larger space to which this intensity can dissipate.
Hey dearie.. I know what you mean.. Welcome to living a successful life in KL.. Let’s catch up sometime.. At Gardens maybe? :D Let me know when la, you mentioned weekends didn’t you..
may tan. u speak of my exact sentiments. to the very last word. (except maybe replace london with lets say.. melbourne) hope you’re currently enjoying the sights and sounds of london, even if just for awhile. we’ll have to hangout more when u get back, neighborhood friend :)
(ok yea so it’s been awhile since i popped back here..thought of you when i tried msg-ing you yesterday only realising that you’ve prolly already left for london!)
hey, maymay :)
spoke to lydia on msn lately…i think we all feel a similar ’something’ abt this whole affair, though the exact details differ from one to the other of us. and of course, God has put us in our particular spaces :)
for me, i’ve been placed in semi-rural Taiping, and it’s a totally separate scene from the rest of you girls! one of these days, i have to seriously sit myelf down and ask God what exactly are i’m doing here and now. and i guess, the same for you?
anyway, heard you’re back from grad. sorry i’ve not been in touch lately – didn’t even wish u in time! hope u enjoyed convo…and i’m so incredibly proud of you! keep smiling xx
Hi May, it has come to my attention that you are feeling suffocated at work. This is a serious issue. If you are not happy you can just leave. Thanks.
- Management of Ethos -
that you fatty?? hahahaha
i had the same thoughts exactly in the last month. Being a girl who grew up in a land abundant in space and expanse, coming to KL has felt like my mental thoughts were squeezed by the throat. I think less, and reflect less. In some ways, I feel shallower as a person. Thats why I thank God, I get to go home every now and again, to breathe :)
Hope you feel better and are adjusting slowly. Know that it takes time. Its just a matter of getting used to it. NOt the most ideal place to feel settled, but better than nothing :) *hugs*