And another chapter closes
This trip to Barcelona and the longggg summer break at home, away from everyone and everything that has been a source of stress to me, will certainly do me good. I know that some lessons in life are to be learnt the hard way, no use in complaining and whining and feeling sorry for myself. I need to really turn back to God 100%, and I know this will strike many of you as strange and unexpected from me, because I don’t seem to have even turned away from God at all, you may think. But the fact is, inside of me, some changes have taken place ever since I embarked on that 4-month long (short?) relationship. No, I didn’t forsake my faith, I didn’t fall into any ‘big’ sins, but in other ways I have denied His supremity and sovereignty over my life. Like when I depended more on the relationship for security, than I did on Him.
I need some time off to think and re-evaluate my attitude towards relationships and singlehood. Reading some online Christian commentaries on romantic relationships as well as personal experiences of other people, has reminded me that I am COMPLETE in Him, I do not need a ’significant other’ to complete me. These things I have always always known and always believed in. When did that change? And why? Feelings feelings feelings… God didn’t give me a brain for nothing. If and when I am ever to be in a relationship again, I must know that it is from God. But for now, I need to learn how to be single again. Learn how to be an individual.
I’m not bad-mouthing anyone, not blaming anyone here. Because I know that God allowed all this to happen to me for a reason, it is all in His plan for me. And His plan will always, in the end, prove to be the good, perfect and pleasing will that it has promised to be. I pray also that He will bless you and be close to you.
Good on ya, girl! *thumbs up!
I’ve enjoyed every bit of singlehood, after something similiar to what you went through. It was just something that had to happen. Praise God! Haha.
David[woohoo!]
PS: Mine was shorter. Hope that made you feel better. :) Hope you have a GREAT holiday too!
No worries!I’ll always pray for you babe!!=) May is BACK!!yay~enjoy ur hols!!balikeeEee KampOng?pung?…eheeh…eMuakzZzz!!!
<3 Grace
I can see that God has already changed you through this…wiser and closer to Him. Good on you girl.
I am no expert on relationship, nor one on singleness (since I dont really remember what is was like…hmmmm…oops, sorry back to you), but it sounds like the experience did you some good… Reminds me of the verse in romans – God works for the good of those whom love Him…. :)
Stay strong sister!!
Jen
david: actually come to think of it, it was 5 and a half months. hah. big difference anyway.
thanks for all the words of encouragement, people. i really do appreciate it. =) *group hug!*
It’s very encouraging for me to read this post. i went through it but thank God, it’s only for 2 months. But it’s a very important lesson for me as God used this relationship to tell me how much He loves and cares for me and most importantly, drew me back to HIM. God’s love is abundant and overflowling. Praise God!